The End but yet the Beginning

The end has never sounded like a pleasant thing. When you think of the end you dont think of happy things. The end sounds of one of sheer terror. But in the reality of it all every end has its beginning. It has a new shining beacon in it embedded deep in its core unseen at first but after a while it becomes aware to its host. The end gives way to the beginning like a portal that gives way to an alternate dimension or a mystical door that opens to a green pasture on a sunny day and shuts the torrential downpour it leaves behind.
The end of a new year can sometimes be a bittersweet feeling, and it can also be a very joyful experience. New Years 2008 was a very sad night. I left behind the year that meant so much to me and had such an amazing impact to my life. Little did i know that 2009 gave way to a horrible year that would stretch me beyond my means. It was a hard year that pushed me to the very limits of stress and stretching that human emotion could possibly allow. I was never so glad to see 2009 fade away as the seconds dawned to midnight and gave way to not only a new year and a new decade but a fresh start. My focus suddenly became tighter and my commitment became clear. It was not the fact that it dawned a new semester but it gave hope to the soul of something bigger. When the midnight countdown began i felt tears well up and as midnight passed i felt as if i passed through that mystical doorway and entered the new decade as if i was a new man. The mistakes i had made in 2009 felt as if they all just dropped off my shoulders.
The mistakes i made were stupid grant it. But yet in 09 i felt as if it was that old elementary school myth about pencils. If you got stabbed by a pencil you would get lead poisoning and it would kill you. Well there was always that crazy story about the kid getting stabbed in the shoulder aka me and i never got lead poisoning because the pencil was made of graphite. But even though i wasn't poisoned it did hurt and i did learn a valuable lesson i will never forget. The same with the mistakes i made in 09 they did not destroy me totally but taught me a valuable lesson through pain and recovery so that the new year and the new decade didn't repeat itself like its last.
Thats the beauty of 2010 and the passing of 2009. Though the former year has passed the lessons learned from it will never fade from memory. The man that i am today and the changes that the last year produced will leave me with the chances of making the new year and decade the most profitable yet.
Its amazing how a few seconds can change the very image of hope that a man has on the outlook of life and his future. I guess with these new changes in place 2010 truly is the year of change that my life is promised.